|B'klyn<3, 2003. I'd be heavier still by 2009.|
True fact: I resolved to join WeightWatchers 3 consecutive New Year's periods before I gave up making resolutions entirely. It may have been one of the prompting factors (I actually even coupled this with The Husband somehow taking charge and making us join together). When I finally did resolve to join WeightWatchers, it was a normal day in June. While mostly giving up on me, there was a bit that finally decided enough was enough: no waiting for January 1, The Husband, or a magical a-ha moment. So it was random day in June 2009 that I joined.
My advice to the interwebs is this: if you have a desire to make a change to yourself, in the world, don't wait. You'll see it everywhere and you'll see it here as well: Every day, every hour and every minute is an opportunity to do those things you want to do. Don't let excuses or fear get in your way. I know this is not an easy thing to do, by far easier to say than to do. Trust me, as to this day it is something I work on: As with WeightWatchers, there are other areas of my life I still avoid out of unrealistic fears. Hyping up the January 1st can often lead to disappointment, so if you see a change you want to make, don't wait.
Well, of course, if it happens to be 01/01 when you find your opportunity, certainly go for it! :)
Evolutions - People have likely thought it, and some have even said it to me; gee, B'klyn<3, you've changed.
This, I cannot deny.
Today I find myself a person who looks in the mirror (the literal one as well as the spiritual one) and sometimes doesn't recognize myself. Dropping all of the weight over the course of two years has changed many aspects of my being, and likely more than even I anticipated. Indeed, not just the weight, but simply growing up has changed me. Just as a kid where I never used to eat anything that wasn't pizza or somehow pizza related so long as it was served with pizza, when I got older (around university age) I started expanding my universe. I had to: I wasn't in Brooklyn anymore and would likely starve since I didn't feel any other place really had pizza so much as they had bread with sauce and cheese on top. I also figured that I was at an age where I should likely eat my vegetables.
Little did I know that the future held a world where I would really be eating my vegetables. Little less did I know that Congress would gently say, "Yes, B'klyn<3; You were eating your vegetables all along."
So I find myself evolving into... well, I don't know what. In many ways, I'm still learning about me, and finding out what it is I truly want out of life. It only took me 30 years or so, and likely will take longer still. Some of my interests are the same, but some have waned and new ones have arisen. What I'm trying to do is learn me, find out what it is I enjoy, and try to maximize on that. I do have things in mind for where I want to be in a few years, so I'm dusting of Ye Olde SMART goals and plotting out how to get there (ah, resolutions in the evolutions eh?)
Like my sweater, I'll ever be the WIP. I'm not sure I'll ever be done, but I'll have fun trying!
Seriously, and seriously I mean this, I'm talking about me... I'll finish that doggone sweater! I'll SMART it if I have to!
Revolutions - Revolutions are in progress! They include two things, helpfully listed below!
|B'klyn<3 2011. I'll never look cool running,|
nor standing still.
A real difference in scale activity. The Husband brings it out once a week, I weigh, and then I live my life how I see fit. Maybe that means a little more activity and a little less vegan candy, or maybe it doesn't. It's time to stop using that number to be the definition and let my body be the definition. I can feel it if I go to far, just as I can feel it when I'm doing right by it. The number was the noise that prevented me from hearing that voice or feeling that waist in my jeans, and not my body. Time for a new approach. I still track my foods and activity. I still go to meetings. I think they are still very important to me; but as I've said before, all just indicators, and not the thing itself. It feels good to finally live that.
A new blog site! I've hinted at the past, and come 2012 I'll be posting to a new site: http://bklynheart.com/ It's partially up with old posts, and will be updated over the course of [don't forget to put the amount of time here, but yes, of course you will won't you, as you haven't resolved to when this will happen yet, did you? *winky face*], and I'll be posting there. I also have a Tumblr account where I mostly post my "food porn" and other things I find interesting and/or amusing. No, I don't know how to be a social media darling. Not really my intent; at the end of the day, I just mean to present me. Not a suggestion, not a demand, but simply that which the curious may want to know.
And so, I bid a fond farewell to 2011. I'll enjoy the final hours of the day cooking up some tasty vittles for myself, The Husband and my friends, running a race, working on goals for the future, and enjoying the heck out of life. Most of those things I'd normally do anyway, and the last I will certainly do more often. That I do resolve.
Take care, be safe, find your joy and love to you always! -B'klyn<3